I was blind. I was lost, dispersed and strayed. You were always there beside me, I was blind, couldn’t see. The King of The Universe waited for me, called me, wanted me to return. I remained lost with my heart, with my soul that was dispersed, with my beliefs that were wrecked. You emerged. You came. You changed. You spurred life in me. I saw you with my heart. You are Constant, Timeless, Divine. You are the Only Source and the Only End, the Only Beginning, The Everlasting. You are my Only Strength, my Only Force. I’ve found You closer than my heart, my nafs, myself, I’ve found You Allah (SWT), I’ve found my Creator – The Source, The Light, The Ultimate, The Divine.
I was strayed and lost. Allah (SWT) showed me the way, He showed me the light.
I walked across my mind, through my heart, inside my nafs, and found You closer than all of them.
I consider myself a beginner who is on her way to decipher the absolute truth this materialistic world bears. Student of Computer Science, so am bound to work more with the brain than heart, but somewhere down the lane, a feeling big or small rests inside that provokes me to fill in the hole of this heart with the remembrance of Allah(SWT).
An ardent lover of Prophet Muhammad(SAW). A true admirer of some classic religious orators like Dr. Zakir Naik, Ustadh Shujauddin Shaikh, Ustadh Nouman Ali Khan, Ustadha Yasmin Mogahed, Shaykh Yasir Qadhi, Shaykh Omar Suleiman, Abdul Nasir Jangda, Dr. Farhat Hashmi, Shaykh Abu Esa Niamatullah, Adnan Rashid and Hamza Andreas Tzortzis.
Struggling to set right the ‘means’ and ‘ends’.
What explains best, the feeling I’ve had since I’ve gained the sense of this world is stated in these lines:
“O Allah, You know me better than I know myself, and I know myself better than these people who praise me. Make me better than what they think of me, and forgive those sins of mine of which they have no knowledge, and do not hold me responsible for what they say.” – Abu Bakr al-Siddiq (RA)
May Allah(SWT) guide us all (Ameen Ya’Rabbul Aalameen)